Hurt and trying to deal with pain-
Inert unable to move because you miss her so-
Feeling of yearning for at least the friend hip you held so dear-
Squealing in silence out confusion and helplessness-
Trembling in sorrow and sadness-
Dissembling your self with prayer and wishful thinking-
Lost in whirlwind of pain and angst-
Toss about amongst trial and failure-
Thirsting for the hunger of every moment with her-
Cursing every thing you did that lead to this-
Wishing her the happiest of times
Fishing for items just to occupy the miserable time